It’s funny how we remember the past. Somehow, amidst all the sorrow I’ve endured in my life, I can still attach a pleasant memory with sweet emotion to even the hardest of times and the lowest of lows. I think it’s important to remember that even though you may be going through a rough time- there is always light at the end of the tunnel. When I think back to certain moments that, at the time, were absolutely terrible…filled with crying and heartbreak… my heart doesn’t hurt anymore. Instead, it’s up to the brim with happiness, thankfulness, and a touch of longing for what used to be.

I may sound like a broken record but I’m happy with my life and where I’m at. I’ve made mistakes, tons of them. I’ve had to deal with so much bullshit but I’d go back in a second. Just to feel like a naive, sixteen year old girl who thought she was going to marry her boyfriend right out of high school. The girl who thought being broken up with at County Line in Austin, Texas was the worst moment of her life. The girl who, senior year, thought that THAT was as good as it was ever going to get. The girl who snuck out of her window in the night every summer to pool hop with her friends. The girl who had a best friend. The girl who didn’t care about material things as much as she cared about “living free”.

Life seemed so hard then and now teen angst doesn’t seem comparable to the quarter-life crisis you have right before you graduate college. So much has changed. But so much is still the same. I’m not going to say things used to be better because I’m sure that in ten years I’ll be referring to now as “the good ol’ days”.

xo

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